How I wish I would have seen this weeks ago. Hope you are all doing well. I suffered depression/panic attacks for 3 years. My first time, I went through 2 weeks of little or no sleep, my body was constantly shaking 24/7, I couldn't eat, heart pounded faster than normal, my mind was either racing or numb. I cried and prayed for it to stop. My doctor put me on Paxil and I suffered one of the side effects. I wanted to kill myself. I could not see relief, couldn't remember normal. I wanted it to stop so badly, that was all I could think of. I stood in my kitchen and stared at the knife drawer, my own mind convincing me it would be alright, just push it through your heart and it will all stop and you won't feel the pain any more. I was home with my then 13 yr old son. And my love for him is the only thing that stopped me. I couldn't let him remember me that way. I called my husband and he came home right away. I stopped taking the meds, bad idea. It's best to let the docs ween you off. I found relief in the Midwest Center for Stress and Anxiety (they also help with depression). Yes this cost money ($500) I paid in installments. It helped me understand myself and opened up a world to me I did not know existed. People, everywhere, that were feeling the same things I felt. I can't express how much I believe in their program. I carry my cards with me all the time. I haven't had to use them but I keep them to share. Please give it a chance, you can go online and check out their site. For me the worst part was accepting I was the only one that could help me, I had to believe in myself, learn to like and then love who I am and what I have become despite my upbringing and childhood and constant fallbacks. I am happy, not rich, not famous, my marriage is not the best and my kids are a huge pain in my butt, but I love and accept them the way they are and will do all I can for them. I am happy to be alive and healthy and be able to share this experience with others. It took a long time and many small relapses, but knowing and understanding the symptoms helped me cope with them and then one day, they just stopped and it's been a good 2 yrs now. If ever I feel anxious, I drink some Tension Tamer Tea by Celestial Seasonings. It tastes yucky, I use plenty of honey and it does calm me down, also chamomile. I cut down on caffeine but can't get over sweets, I love candy. Take care of yourselves and I truly hope this will help you, you deserve to be happy.
How I wish I would have seen this weeks ago. Hope you are all doing well. I suffered depression/panic attacks for 3 years. My first time, I went through 2 weeks of little or no sleep, my body was constantly shaking 24/7, I couldn't eat, heart pounded faster than normal, my mind was either racing or numb. I cried and prayed for it to stop. My doctor put me on Paxil and I suffered one of the side effects. I wanted to kill myself. I could not see relief, couldn't remember normal. I wanted it to stop so badly, that was all I could think of. I stood in my kitchen and stared at the knife drawer, my own mind convincing me it would be alright, just push it through your heart and it will all stop and you won't feel the pain any more. I was home with my then 13 yr old son. And my love for him is the only thing that stopped me. I couldn't let him remember me that way. I called my husband and he came home right away. I stopped taking the meds, bad idea. It's best to let the docs ween you off. I found relief in the Midwest Center for Stress and Anxiety (they also help with depression). Yes this cost money ($500) I paid in installments. It helped me understand myself and opened up a world to me I did not know existed. People, everywhere, that were feeling the same things I felt. I can't express how much I believe in their program. I carry my cards with me all the time. I haven't had to use them but I keep them to share. Please give it a chance, you can go online and check out their site. For me the worst part was accepting I was the only one that could help me, I had to believe in myself, learn to like and then love who I am and what I have become despite my upbringing and childhood and constant fallbacks. I am happy, not rich, not famous, my marriage is not the best and my kids are a huge pain in my butt, but I love and accept them the way they are and will do all I can for them. I am happy to be alive and healthy and be able to share this experience with others. It took a long time and many small relapses, but knowing and understanding the symptoms helped me cope with them and then one day, they just stopped and it's been a good 2 yrs now. If ever I feel anxious, I drink some Tension Tamer Tea by Celestial Seasonings. It tastes yucky, I use plenty of honey and it does calm me down, also chamomile. I cut down on caffeine but can't get over sweets, I love candy.
Take care of yourselves and I truly hope this will help you, you deserve to be happy.